American Idol Kelly Clarkson: I didn't want to win 'American Idol' 09/08/2017 Kelly Clarkson says she didn't want to win the debut season of "American Idol." Read More RELATED NEWS 'American Idol' Season 1 finalist Nikki McKibbin dies at age 42 Kelly Clarkson says her weight reflects her happiness -- "It's when I'm fat that I'm happy"Kelly Clarkson: "I wanted to kill myself" when I was "really skinny" TAGS: American Idol The Voice Kelly Clarkson Justin Guarini From Justin to Kelly